From an iPod found in Canal Park;
Duluth, MN July 2010
6AM Hot love; T Rex: the furnace hasn’t kicked in yet. 1978, laying in the backseat
with a girl I just met; on our way to the hospital. Today it would be called active
suicide ideation with plan & intent.
7:02AM Where have all the good times gone; Van Halen: sent an email to her. No,
not her, the other one; the one who throws little bombs. Scar on her back. 1982, Felicia,
dyed red hair and motorcycle boots. She wanted to fuck. I couldn’t remember her name.
8:45AM Space [I believe]; Pixies: I check mail, change the radio station, turn the radio
off, check mail, turn the radio back on. 2012, smoke willows between the clouds; grey
roots of a forlorn and empty heaven.
Dylan/Waits/Cave: remember the Arena; kids, a line of blue smoke, waiting
to be messiah-ed. You take my hand. Tell me that, for years, you played piano;
never mention how easy it is to lose balance on water.
Exiled: Mesabi Avenue was impassable in winter; rear-wheeled tanks slide
stuck and we bombed our way top to bottom. The lift bridge chops the lake
in two a dozen times a day; manmade rain shiny on the hoods of cars.
Radio K: We are cursed to wanting; winter to spring to summer to fall
to east to the wrong side of the tracks. The wind cracks 24/7, a barista
smiles, waits for my order; I hear the short quick snap of a pop top.
Modern English: I was 17, she was 16, dirty blonde hair; a prostitute. I didn’t believe
in god then either. You lie next to me, curled in a dream; I am nothing more than your
skin, a light that changes color with your every breath.
Ray LaMontagne: downtown Duluth: Glass Blocks, Musicland’s, pre-porn NorShor
Theater; we huddled in cigarette shelters, bored on borrowed time. Let’s find a little
place on Park Point that has enough room to paint the lake forever.
Tokyo Jihen: You put your hand in my back pocket; the future, like heaven, exists
only for those who can’t live in the present. There is only this: bare limbs, the dust
of feathers, your trigger finger in the small of my back.